Post by Silvy on Jun 25, 2014 22:50:34 GMT -5
Just thought I would write about him since I can't really stop thinking about him, and I have no one to tell.
For reference, we are going into Junior year! I transferred to my school Sophomore year w/ METCO. I'll skip a lot.
So basically, I developed a crush on this guy in my English class. We first met when we had to do a debate together. After that, I thought he was really cool and hilarious, but I wasn't really really interested in him. We rarely talked after. Then a few weeks later I had 2 dreams in a row where we kissed? That's really embarrassing to admit... but I took it as an omen that I should talk to him more. I was already friends with his best friend from my art class, so it wasn't too difficult.
I am really shy, so even saying hello to him in the hallway was a task. When I saw him, I would say hi if I could muster up the courage. We were also friends on Facebook, and after getting yelled at to "Just send it already!" I struck up a really pleasant conversation with him. Over time, it got easier. I kinda learned his schedule a bit after a while, so I knew where to see him during our shared free periods. These times were the best, I got to sit with him, talk to him, and draw/leave messages for him in his iPad. My favorite memory of this is when it was a short day and I had my headphones in, not looking up or paying attention to anything. All of a sudden he plops down next to me (scared the hell out of me) and we spent that free together. I didn't expect it at all... 'twas short, but the best. He scared me 2 other times this school year, coming out of no where in the hallway >__<
We also went on a physics field trip together with our friend (since I transferred I had to take it, he was in AP) and he sat next to me and let me lean on him on a Ferriswheel (｡’▽’｡)♡
The year went on like that pretty much. On the week before the last, one day he was in a rush to leave and I asked if I could talk to him after school. He smiled and said yes, then ran off. Thankfully, he forgot (always leaves as soon as we are released) and I didn't mind. Last week was finals week. I didn't want to stay after then, because I wanted to go home and study, but I still wanted to say hi or something. Never saw him. FINALLY last day of school, he wasn't there. I was pretty upset. Turns out, he came late because he "wasn't really in a rush." I was so relieved, and I spent that day with him and our friend, going to each others classes and walking around. He was going to get a ride home from his friend, but all of a sudden (as if the universe was working in my favor) the friend says he has a doctor's appointment and my crush can't go. So I got to walk with him! We had a really great conversation then, I didn't expect it to go where it went... like it got a little deep. We talked about anxiety (specifically mine) and boy is this guy great at giving advice. It was really long but ah... when we got to his house, before I had to turn back, right before he turned around to walk away I asked for a hug. That was so scaryyyy... He had the biggest smile on his face (he smiles at me every time we look at each other pretty much) and he came to me with his arms outstretched. I was so terrified he made me hug him again because I accidentally side hugged him. The second one was better but it was getting long and I freaked out and broke it off again. I wish I hadn't, he smelled so good and he gave one of those really comforting hugs that you don't get very often.... I blushed all the way home hehe.
Ghh I forgot to mention, during that conversation I expressed something about being lonely in turn with my anxiety... forgot what exactly... And I gave an example... "Hey Crush, do you want to hang out with me? Is the equivalent of punching a cop in the face." and he said "But, you just did it." then smiled at me... I took that as "Go ahead, ask me." SO I DID it was terrifying but he said YES?!?! So I have his skype and we are planning to see How to Train Your Dragon 2 this weekend. I actually have hope this time... I'm done now but this has never happened to me so I'm really excited. Hopefully all this garble makes sense
For reference, we are going into Junior year! I transferred to my school Sophomore year w/ METCO. I'll skip a lot.
So basically, I developed a crush on this guy in my English class. We first met when we had to do a debate together. After that, I thought he was really cool and hilarious, but I wasn't really really interested in him. We rarely talked after. Then a few weeks later I had 2 dreams in a row where we kissed? That's really embarrassing to admit... but I took it as an omen that I should talk to him more. I was already friends with his best friend from my art class, so it wasn't too difficult.
I am really shy, so even saying hello to him in the hallway was a task. When I saw him, I would say hi if I could muster up the courage. We were also friends on Facebook, and after getting yelled at to "Just send it already!" I struck up a really pleasant conversation with him. Over time, it got easier. I kinda learned his schedule a bit after a while, so I knew where to see him during our shared free periods. These times were the best, I got to sit with him, talk to him, and draw/leave messages for him in his iPad. My favorite memory of this is when it was a short day and I had my headphones in, not looking up or paying attention to anything. All of a sudden he plops down next to me (scared the hell out of me) and we spent that free together. I didn't expect it at all... 'twas short, but the best. He scared me 2 other times this school year, coming out of no where in the hallway >__<
We also went on a physics field trip together with our friend (since I transferred I had to take it, he was in AP) and he sat next to me and let me lean on him on a Ferriswheel (｡’▽’｡)♡
The year went on like that pretty much. On the week before the last, one day he was in a rush to leave and I asked if I could talk to him after school. He smiled and said yes, then ran off. Thankfully, he forgot (always leaves as soon as we are released) and I didn't mind. Last week was finals week. I didn't want to stay after then, because I wanted to go home and study, but I still wanted to say hi or something. Never saw him. FINALLY last day of school, he wasn't there. I was pretty upset. Turns out, he came late because he "wasn't really in a rush." I was so relieved, and I spent that day with him and our friend, going to each others classes and walking around. He was going to get a ride home from his friend, but all of a sudden (as if the universe was working in my favor) the friend says he has a doctor's appointment and my crush can't go. So I got to walk with him! We had a really great conversation then, I didn't expect it to go where it went... like it got a little deep. We talked about anxiety (specifically mine) and boy is this guy great at giving advice. It was really long but ah... when we got to his house, before I had to turn back, right before he turned around to walk away I asked for a hug. That was so scaryyyy... He had the biggest smile on his face (he smiles at me every time we look at each other pretty much) and he came to me with his arms outstretched. I was so terrified he made me hug him again because I accidentally side hugged him. The second one was better but it was getting long and I freaked out and broke it off again. I wish I hadn't, he smelled so good and he gave one of those really comforting hugs that you don't get very often.... I blushed all the way home hehe.
Ghh I forgot to mention, during that conversation I expressed something about being lonely in turn with my anxiety... forgot what exactly... And I gave an example... "Hey Crush, do you want to hang out with me? Is the equivalent of punching a cop in the face." and he said "But, you just did it." then smiled at me... I took that as "Go ahead, ask me." SO I DID it was terrifying but he said YES?!?! So I have his skype and we are planning to see How to Train Your Dragon 2 this weekend. I actually have hope this time... I'm done now but this has never happened to me so I'm really excited. Hopefully all this garble makes sense